I was brought up in a Christian home by first-generation born-again Christian parents. My mom likes to tell me a story about when I accepted Christ as my Savior. I was around five years old watching Billy Graham on TV when I asked my mom if I could have Jesus in my heart. She helped me say a prayer to accept Him as my Lord. It is a sweet story of a child’s mustard seed of faith. The remainder of my childhood and teenage years were spent attending church, learning more about the Christian life and were peppered with recommitments of faith at various youth rallies and summer camps.
It wasn’t until I entered college and life on my own that my journey of truly resting in and relying on Christ began. One night during a spring break trip in Colorado, I lay wide-awake wondering why I believed what my parents and church taught me. Was the Bible true? Was Christ really the way? I believe the Holy Spirit whispered to my heart that evening reminding me that because sin entered the world through one man, I was born a sinner and needed reconciliation with the one true, Holy God. And through one man, Jesus Christ, and His sacrifice for all of humanity, I was able to receive that reconciliation. The Gospel became clear, relevant, deeply personal and desperately necessary to me that evening. I wholeheartedly put my trust in Christ and accepted His free gift of salvation.
Since then, Christ has continued to refine and mold me to become more like Him. As a young woman, I struggled with pride and self-righteousness that led to bitterness. I had led a “good” life and prided myself in making all the right moral decisions. Yet, so many of my heart’s desires went unmet and I felt, unnoticed by God. It took many years for God to soften my heart and realize authentic humility before Him. I am so grateful that God never gave up on me as I would have missed out on a truly blessed, joyful life if I had chosen to let pride and bitterness rule my heart.
God continues to work on me, reminding me to cling to Him, especially when I fail and feel unworthy. Life is filled with sorrow, brokenness and death yet the moment I trusted in Christ, I realized that life could still be filled with joy and beauty because I now have a greater hope in the promises of Christ. Hebrews 10:23 “Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful.”
– Missy S.